January came on a high and ended with a giant bang! I wrote over 40K words and rocked out the most emotional chapter of my entire novel. I’m talking heart wrenching, punch to the gut, brought-my-own-dang-self-to-tears kind of emotion here. It was awesome!
I was on a total high, ready to keep grabbing my writing by the huevos, then February came and suddenly that huge spark I felt just…fizzled out. *insert sad trombone music*
Ack, what can you do? These things happen. *shrug*
But really, I am fine. I’ve been at this for nine years, I know how the story goes. I write, go at it really hard, exhaust myself physically and emotionally, then I need a little break before my next big boost of inspiration comes. It always comes.
In the meantime, I’ve been trying to focus on all the little things that will help me get back on track: Taking care of myself, eating right, exercising, reading and binging interior design shows on Netflix – which may not exactly help me with writing per se, but it’s given me a ton of ideas for some upcycling projects I want to do this summer, so just leave me alone, okay?
By now you’re probably wondering aloud to yourself, “But Brigitte, what the fork does any of this have to do with the title of this blog?”
I’m so glad you asked! The answer? It doesn’t really. I’ve just been blabbing.
Well, that’s not entirely true. There is kind of a point to all this. You see, while I was dealing with this annoying “down time”, struggling to come up with some decent ideas for this blog post, I ended up reflecting on one particularly positive thing I did this month that not only really pulled me out of my comfort zone, but also taught me a valuable lesson about writing:
DON’T BE AFRAID TO JUMP!
So, without further ado, I’m going to jump right in!
I went Bouldering!
Oh Em Gee, you guys, I went bouldering last week. Thirty seven years old with gray hairs and I can still climb walls! Booya! Take THAT, aging!
For those of you who aren’t familiar with bouldering, it’s a climbing sport where you bravely (or stupidly) monkey your way up a wonky wall studded with different colored rocks, without a harness. No ropes, no clips, no support whatsoever. It’s just you, the wall and gravity, my friend. The color of the rocks represents different climbing paths of varying difficulty levels, and the goal — duh— is to make it to the top.
Mitch and some of his friends have been bouldering every week since the beginning of December. Boulder Buds, they call themselves. Cute, right? So cute, in fact, that I decided to invite myself along one evening and it wasn’t until I cockily made it to the top of the wall on my very first try that I realized the other thing about bouldering is getting down.
There I was, dangling at the top with Mitch calling up to me, “It’s okay, Brig, let go! Jump!”
Now, let’s be clear here. The whole thing is fairly safe. The walls aren’t that high and there are giant mats at the bottom of walls with lots of cushioning to break the fall. But I just couldn’t let go. It felt like I was a hundred feet up, my heart was racing, sweat beads collected on my forehead…So like a total wuss, I shakily climbed back down the wall and only jumped once I was a few feet from the mat.
This pattern kept repeating itself all evening. I’d get to the top, be encouraged to jump (You can do it, Brig!), only to chicken out and awkwardly do the climb-of-shame back down again. Not only was I super annoyed with myself, but the constant climbing down also tired out my muscles more than necessary which reduced the amount of climbing I could do. Boo!
My fear of jumping kept me from accomplishing more than I did.
So how does this relate to writing, you ask? Well…
Why am I so into GIFs today? Anyway…
Writer’s block is most often based on fear. Fear of failure, fear of criticism, fear of rejection, fear of mediocrity and, believe it or not, fear of success. Often, these fears can paralyze us creatively, just as my fear of heights paralyzed me at the top of that bloody wall.
The lesson here is that I need to be more brave when it comes to my writing. I need to trust the mats and remember to JUMP! It’s not really that high up, after all. So, instead of putting so much pressure on myself and going into it with an “all or nothing” attitude, I need to try approaching it with an “all or something” mindset.
I’m going to go bouldering again. And when I do, I’m going to jump.
Do you get writer’s block? If so, what’s the main thing that holds you back and what is your best trick to wrestle your way out of it? Leave a comment below!
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